Giving Up

For some reason I totally disregarded my blog. But then again it's not like I would have had all the time of the world to update it.

Right now I am in winter break. Classes are officially over for me since I e-mailed my last assignment to my teacher. So far I have all A's. They all add up to a stunning 3.888 GPA. I feel accomplished although I know I can do better. There are still three more classes left to report my grade but I already know for sure that one of them is A-. I'm pretty happy about that.

Tomorrow is the annual Technician Christmas party in which current members as well as alumni get to go and reunite for a night and celebrate Christmas. I love Technicians. I fell in love with this group a couple of years ago and it totally changed my life. This is pretty much the main reason why I love my high school. I expect great things from them.

You know what's nice? Coming back home and knowing that you've already been scheduled for work without even a notice. It's really great. Means people value your service and are willing to give you work when you can do it. Awesome.

There's so much right now that I want to do with the little free time I have. I want to start a scrapbook about the important college days I had such as games and friend dinners. Also I want to start back on making little plushies so I can sell and make a little something. Now I'm thinking about charging some $5 to $10 depending on design and how long I took to complete the project. I want to start stitching. Drawing people as well as all the Pokemon, WarnerBros. characters, Disney characters, and other random subjects. I really want to.

I'm pretty much out of money so I need a job. Anything. Right now I wouldn't really mind whoring. :/

I hope to get back with this blog. I started a YouTube channel but it's not really working. I get ideas of what I want to talk about but they end up not working or I'm just too boring. Meh

Second Day

Today was really really boring.

I got up around 10ish to go and buy art supplies at Pygmalion's. I spent around $140. I guess I need everything too. I better use it all up too! On top of that I had to buy my Art History book which was $125.

My first class, Fundamental Studio Drawing, started at 2:30 so I took the liberty to be in the library and get something to eat. That class is full of girls. I am the only guy, besides the instructor who seems to not be a native English-speaker. Whatevs.
So we all sat in small groups of 3-4 drawing still life for a study. I looked around and I really thought that everybody was ahead of me, meaning that they had better techniques and better-looking drawings of boxes, jugs, and artificial fruits. I gave it my best shot and it turned out okay. I guess I'll save it for my portfolio.
I found out that in that class I need more art supplies which I will probably get tomorrow because I don't feel like walking all beyond campus carrying books and back carrying more art supplies. Which is what I had done earlier. Ugh.
We left early because there really was nothing else to do. And the instructor just wanted to see how everyone drew. I saw the syllabus and we'll be doing a self-portrait. Whoops. Ugh.

So I went to the library and spent some quality time on the computer. I met a person. This person thinks I'm "fucking gorgeous." I'm excited. Thing is, I don't know what this person looks like. Never mind the name...

So then I went to my second and last class; Chorus. I arrived there even before the director which was great because we kind of got to know each other a little bit. I look forward to getting to know him better though and hopefully have him write a letter of recommendation? :)
That class only has about 17 guys. The rest are girls. It's a class of about 70 people. Give or take.

And now I'm back in the library. Trying to see how I'm going to get a hold of some English books for my English homework which is due tomorrow. v.v Great.

Awn. First Day of College

It was pretty awesome!

I woke up and got ready for my Japanese class. It's pretty close to my dorm so I took a bit of time to check my mail box and see if my books had arrived yet. Nope. Whatevs. My Japanese class is great. There are about twenty-some people and I had thought that there were only three; including me and the instructor. The entire class was pretty much conducted in Japanese which I thought was great because that is mainly how somebody learns a new language. Some eye candy around too. :) Oh. And we already have a quiz next Friday v.v

My next class was Art History, or Renaissance through the Arts. Same thing. It's a huge lecture hall with a lot of people but today it was pretty okay. I found out that I need to buy another book for about $150 v.v Ugh. I guess. And we have papers to write and what-not.

I went to Wright Food Court and got a spinach chicken wrap. It was pretty good. I went and ate it outside because I was trying to hurry to my next class: Beginning Interior Design. That class has about 50 people and about only nine of them are male. That's pretty funny, although the instructor already stated that we males don't get special treatment rather than attention from our fellow classmates. To the ones who aren't gay I guess.
That class was the most painful. I had to walk to it because I didn't know where it was and I didn't know which bus went by the building. I think it took about 20 minutes to find it. I was there an hour early I think. Whatev. They had us do a two-point perspective sketch of a corner. It was a bit challenging for a few of us I think. And I left mine on the instructor's table because I had to leave to look for and arrive early to my English Composition class. I need to go and buy about $200 worth of art material for my studio class too. Ugh.

My Elementary English Composition class was pretty decent. The professor is pretty laid back so working with her will be great. Even getting help from her won't be painful. We do have group stuff to do and what-not though. Ugh.

I then went to the library and printed out my materials list for interior design. A lot of things I need by Wednesday. Then I had dinner. I think I had two chicken legs. Whatev. I had been drinking water all day so I wasn't really that hungry.

Right now I'm in my friends' room on her computer. I need a laptop too. Ugh.

Even after a long break,

I am able to recall my password.

So right now it is Spring Break. Yay! -.- Not really. It is very boring around here, and the weather is not very warm either so I can't just go outside and read a book. I rather read my monitor :)

So last week, actually this past Friday, I spent about an hour working on the yearbook. Yeah. The yearbook deadline is April 25th. That is also the day that Ball State has its numerous journalism/yearbook workshops which we all like. Our adviser, Ms. Jesse, set a condition for us: if we finish the yearbook, or get to close to it by that date, then we will be able to go to Ball State, otherwise not. Since four of us stayed after to work on it, me (Academics Editor), Felicia (Editor-in-Chief), Shanez (Sports Editor), and Tesh (she's not a student), she ordered pizza for us. It was a very productive meeting if I do say so myself, although I still need a lot more and I'm just wondering how I'm going to get it all done.

Friday I also turned in my application for the Tech Alumni Scholarship. They give up to $2,000 and I hope I get more than that because I really need the money.

I had to work on Friday and Audrey took me to work. I had to take my 80-lb book bag along and all my books and uniform. I looked so dumb. And in the process I managed to lose my precious agenda. I don't know if any of you keep track of your dates or anything but that thing is seriously my life! I hope I left it in Ms. Jesse's room and that I find it on Monday when we return from break. Otherwise I'm going to have to buy another one...-sigh-

Right now I'm at home doing absolutely nothing. What I should be doing is start working on my senior scrapbook. Otherwise I won't have time because we all know that April is a really busy month with contest, Feast and Follies, Senior Musical, Arts on the Green, and all that fun stuff. Plus newspaper and yearbook for me. And a job. Ugh.

I don't want to work at McDonald's anymore though just because I don't work enough and they don't really pay a lot. Plus they overwork us, leaving two people to do what four people should be doing. It's not fun.

Well, hopefully I'll continue to blog more often. I just haven't really felt like it. Plus there's this feeling that I might not have any more internet. T.T

It's Been A While...

It's almost been a week since I last updated!

But today was fun! With the Technician Valentine's Party I was too happy I couldn't cry for it being my last one. ^^ No worries. It's a happy moment. I won't cry.
But it really was fun. People were crazy. I guess you could refer to the Facebook photos that will soon be up.

Highlights of the party:

Queen of Hearts: Audrey Speraw!

King of Hearts: Yours Truly, Erick Gama!

Best Dressed Valentine: Angel Avina! (He was a cupid. Again, refer to Facebook pics)

Lots of candy and cute little notes were passed out and enjoyed by all. Unfortunately, I have been slacking so I couldn't really make my usual V-Day cards. The ones with the heart that pops out? Yeah. Those. Awww. I know. So instead I'm making everyone cute little notes. At least I think they're cute.
I had another idea but it required a procedure which I wasn't very sure of so I'm saving that for next year. That means that an underclassman will have to put my valentines in the other Technicians' bags. Cute, huh?

Oh. This week the Key Club also sold teddy bears for V-Day as a fundraiser. We pretty much made over $300. That is amazing! I wish Ms. Jesse would've bought V-Day items on sale last year to sell this year. . .

Today I was awarded a total of 400 extra credit points in my English class.

200- For The Cannon being awesome this month
200- For explaining the origin of Friday 13th

Go me! That means I can slack off a bit in that class now! Weee!

Erick Made A Bowl!

I made a bowl yesterday in Ceramics! It looks pretty good if I do say so myself!

The teacher, Mr. Halvorson, asked if I had used the wheel before. I guess he thought I was too good for it to have been my first time? I decay.

I really can't remember much about yesterday but I know I got a 10/10 on my Japanese test! Sensei always points out that I'm usually the only one who is always the high score. It bothers me a little...

Also! Yesterday was Lerron's and my first day testing for Piano! It was okay I guess! I did okay! And I think he did pretty good too! He just needs to catch up! Imma buy him a little keyboard so he can go home and practice everyday! Hahaha. Maybe not (me buying the piano).

Yesterday I was also supposed to get my haircut but I couldn't so I got it this morning. It's nice now! And I feel like I lost 3 lbs! Hahaha. And from then, I had to work! My manager complimented my haircut, said it looked nice! ^^
And I got to work with my friend Kayla Smith! She goes to Tech! And she's the one who convinced me to go back to that McDonald's. Otherwise I would've gone to the one on 10th Street, which I still think is much better for weekends because of all the cute people in the concert -cough-

And my boss still calls me Rick. I don't really care much now, haha. And Lerron calls me Ricky. But that's cuter and he came up with it first! I'm thinking of changing my name on Facebook to Ricky Gama! Haha. Maybe not!

Oooh! Wanna know what I had in my stomach yesterday? I couple of grapes and a thing of chocolate milk and then a chicken wing and a drumstick. Yum, huh? That was all day! And I survived! Today I had a salad. And a chicken wing and some eggs. So far still here!

OH! Yesterday was Guard too! I loved it! I stayed a bit after with Audrey and she brought me home. I loves me Audrey!

I think that's it for today. We have people over because we're celebrating my dad's ?th birthday! He's happy. And a bit drunk >.> But oh well.

Erick Feels Nasty & Gross

It's the hair. It's too long. I like my bangs. But I might just trim them or have them halfway cut. That way they can curl a bit and look cute-ish.

Today I had to take my contacts out during school because my eyes were super red and they were burning. There was no other option. So I went ahead and did it in the room, in my seat. It freaked some people out but after a minute my eyes were feeling sooo much better! Too bad I couldn't really see! ^^ Oh well.
And I couldn't see people very well either...

Today was our (last) first musical meeting. There were a lot of people there and some of them I don't like. I'm sorry. But I don't.
The magic number is 20. That's pretty scary. And daring. And sad T.T

I sat next to Johnny for the whole thing. And why am I just realizing that he is very funny? Haha. Of course I knew that but he is just sooo silly and laughs at my faces. I love him.

I had to work today. From 6 to 9. It wasn't that bad but I was put in Drive-Thru. Receiving orders. With this cold-ass weather. Sheesh. But oh well.
I managed to make $685 in the three hours I was there.

I had a meatless Big Mac with salty fries and a medium Sprite. I need to stop eating there and say I do. That way I can lose more weight. Or just eat salads without chicken. But chicken is good, health-wise.

Have I mentioned I need a haircut? ^^

Oh! And tomorrow will be my first day on the wheel! In Ceramics! I'm excited! I get to make a bowl! Hopefully it'll be chubby and cute. Heehee.

Erick Needs A Haircut

Badly.

I work tomorrow though, so it might be until Friday. I only work three hours, but I'm not complaining. I need money.

Today people stayed after school for a Guard meeting. I am really very excited! I am going to ask McDonald's if I can get Wednesdays and Fridays off just so I can stay after longer to spin flags! Nevermind the fact that we pretty much only have about a month to learn what we are doing for Arts On The Green. And Lora, I think that's how her name is spelled, our Guard instructor, promised us real poles by Friday! That means real spinning! Hurray and Hallelujah! ^^

I'm excited.

Something I'm not very excited about though is getting scholarships and money to go to IU. I really don't know. I hope I can keep up with everything and manage to get money. I'm actually now thinking of a loan. Something I don't really want.

And IU contacted me today about my $500 scholarship thanks to an article I wrote during the High School Journalism Institute Summer Workshop. The money wasn't really for the article but my counselor recommended me for the scholarship. She loved me! And she's in Indy now so getting together for a night won't be too difficult. And I didn't mean it in a nasty way either o.o

Now. I need more pictures for my yearbook section. Like a lot. I still haven't gotten the Top Students of each academy. And I need to schedule dates for music group photos...

Erick Feels He Has Neglected His Blog...

Guess what? I'm using my desktop! That's right! The computer that we had to pay twice for it to be repaired. The first time was because it just would not turn on anymore and the second time because, after having properly installed a very good Anti-Virus, my computer kept freezing. That was another $40. Whatever. So now my parents told me not to install the Anti-Virus but to leave it alone.
That's kind of dangerous though, considering some of the few things I do online -cough-

But anyway.

I cut my big fat toe last night. T.T I know! And it does hurt a little still. I put a band-aid over it so the sock wouldn't hurt me much. Meh. I haven't looked at it since last night...

Many things have happened. Some I can't really talk about. Some I could but they're too much.

One thing I know for sure: I already saw myself during Techoir Overnight. Take it any way you want.

Depression

If you guys see me smiling around school, chances are I'm just acting.

I feel like crap. I feel worthless. I feel that I shouldn't keep going. It would be so easy to just disappear and leave everyone alone. I just feel so hurt. So . . . I don't know. Ugh. I guess it's just one of those moments. And I know that after I cry a lot I will get over it.
I have so many feelings just bottled up inside me and I am really ready to burst. It's so hard to just control myself and not cry in the middle of class.
I don't even understand why I feel this way.

And on top of all these emotions and whatnot I have a bunch of homework and responsibilities! People say being a senior is easy but I truly don't think so! Or maybe it's just me doing too fucking much! I don't need all this! For real! But quitting now will all be just a waste of time and effort!

I'm glad I will be graduating with 62 high school credits and with an Academic Honors Diploma but it's so hard!

Right now I am even considering whether or not I should do the musical! I really want to because it will be my last musical! And I want to be there when the seniors say good-bye! With me being one of them! Ugh. I hate this!

I'm going to take a shower and going to cry in there. My excuse for red eyes: soap got in my eyes.

Emotionally Overwhelmed

I found out today how a fellow journalist feels about me being the Editor-in-Chief of The Cannon. She didn't directly tell me I didn't deserve the spot but that is really what she meant. It's not really something I care about; I mean her opinion, not the post. But it kind of hurts, realizing that someone doesn't like you for a small thing. Whatever.

I confessed my love for someone today. It went better than I thought. At least he promised we'd still be friends and he told me he loved me too. As a brother.
Time to let go and move on. It is not easy but it has to be done.

Ummm. Mr. Armbruster called me Friday afternoon that I was being nominated for the National Honor Society and told me to pick up my papers Monday. I forgot about it on Monday so I went today. I went twice but both times he wasn't there. The deadline is this Friday so I'm a little concerned. I hope I can see him tomorrow morning!

Right now I am also trying to get ready for a Japanese competition in Richmond. This will be on February 28th. It's a Saturday and it will probably be a bit before noon or something so we will have to leave early. Ugh. Otherwise I am fine. But I still need to study some more Japanese.

Speaking of Japanese, I got a 10 on my last test! Weee!

If you read this, you are invited to my birthday party on Jan 24th. 1336 N. Olney St. We don't know the time yet!

First Post Of The Year, Anyone?

So I finally got my computer fixed but that meant deleting all my files and whatnot. That part sucks, but otherwise I don't think I'll go to my old habits. If you don't know what I mean, ask me and I might tell you.

There is so much to say that I don't even know where to start.

Oooh! My birthday party will be January 24th at my house. It won't be in my house, it will be in the garage which will be nicer and is much bigger to occupy. I don't know if I should expect presents or not. I kind of do, but then it doesn't really matter.

Hmmm. Journalism. Ms. Jesse kicked some people out. Three of those people were part of my four-person team for my yearbook section. So now I am pretty much stuck with just one girl and me doing my section and me editing the pages. It's too much. I really shouldn't have done it, but then again, no one else wanted to.

Today I went to McDonalds to see if I could get a job again. The owner told my brother and me that he has to talk to some managers about our previous experience before he decides. I think we have great chances of getting the job. I just really need the money!
But then again, musical is about to start... I'm thinking my parents will have me choose between either.

Oh. I need a boyfriend. At least for these last months. Someone close to me. I should make applications. -sigh-