My Apologies

For not updating in like forever. It's mainly because I don't have as much free time as I'd love to.

Let's start with Friday.
I had a field trip that day with my journalism class to Franklin College's workshops. I went to a Leadership meeting that took two hours. If you ask what I learned, the answer is simple: nothing. Everyone pretty much thought that this field trip was a waste of time. Not completely, but pretty much so. I could've taken advantage of Advanced Photoshop. But oh well. We had a good discussion on the bus about schools and stuff. Some of us are planning on starting a petition for more strict rules and more severe consequences on problematic students. It's a great idea, I think.

Friday was also our Homecoming. We lost. But it was pretty fun, I think. Kandice won Homecoming Queen! Yay!

Color Guard effed up majorly on the field. We were probably the only ones who noticed too because no else said anything. I was pretty pissed though, because we had practiced it so many times and it was our last time to shine in front of the school. I was most worried about one person.

I ended up giving Steven a nice hug. I was on the floor and he was standing on a bleacher so my head came up to his belly and he had to bend down to hug me. -sigh-


Saturday. I think that was the best day ever. Mainly because Techoir was right there with top choirs. And we showed everyone that Tech isn't mediocre, as some New Palestine students expected of us; they were the ones who sucked.

Then Into the Woods. Ms. D told me that it was not the best musical for someone's first live musical. Me! Yeah, just a small observation: pretty much all the guys were gay!

Ms. D took me home after the musical. And I finally got to meet both of her high school daughters. They are pretty funny, I think. I'd like to get to know them more. Apparently Ms. D tells them about me. That's nice :)

Sunday: Church.
Whatever. Same stuff. We watched The Happening. It was a pretty cool movie, I think. Watch it, don't buy it though, because it's not that great. Do get it for a dollar at one of those RedBox things at McDonald's.


I woke up cold this morning. So I put on my fake-fur. It was so warm!
I apparently had an essay due today in U.S. History. About what? I don't know. Random, unnecessary shit. Stupid Ms. Frank.

I have MLK's speech due tomorrow. I still don't know it. Oh well.

Japanese is still fun.

I don't know what else to say today, except that I'm still confused about Steven, I just want to ask him. In my head I do, and it all comes out the way I want it. I fear rejection, that's the thing. I want to tell him "If you like me say so. If you don't, stop acting like you do."
He grabbed my ass on Saturday, after the whole choir thing. So I don't know whether to take those as signs or not. And he winked at me today and I found him staring at me and he tried to pick me up while I was picking Joey up. I'm so confused. And I'm lousy, and scared. I don't know.
I wonder if he does like Lerron. Someone told me that Steven had said that they were just friends. Lerron knows I like Steven, and Lerron still talks to me like I don't see them both hanging around. I hope they are just friends, otherwise I will feel miserable. IDK.

Den wir haben

I don't even know what that means, but the whole beginning of the song has been stuck in my head for ever! It doesn't help that I just got done listening to five and six while taking a shower. Six sounds amazing on the CD. I love the little fast part.

I borrowed a Media pass to go interview a teacher for my story and I was supposed to have given it back by the end of they day. I forgot. Whoops.
She called me Editor-in-Chief again! OMG! I freaking love that title!
I'm the Editor-in-Chief, therefore, I should have a permanent pass, don't you think?

I'm having a U.S. History test tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I'll do fine since we are allowed to use a sheet of notes and past quizzes. I'm actually learning more with Ms. Frank gone.

I still haven't memorized all of MLK's speech. I have the first page pretty much done, I just need to finish the back. It's due this Friday, but I'll be going on a field trip so I hope he can let it go and let me do it on Monday. If I do manage to learn it by then.

Since I am a peer tutor 4th period, I took the liberty to go interview a teacher. She was really helpful but there were a lot of people coming in and out of her office so we were both easily distracted. I have to show my notes to Ms. Jesse tomorrow morning so I can interview her more if needed; turns out her last day is this Friday.

I finished a little before the period ended so I just went to ICP, the class room in which I help. As soon as I had put my stuff down I was asked for help to explain the work needed to be done. It wasn't that hard, but it just annoys me that people don't get ICP. It's so useless! They should be able to fly through the course!

Anyways, Music. Yes. Ms. told us the musical! Cinderella! I'm excited. I just want to be chorus though because I want to see all the action. And besides, let's face it, I'm not the greatest singer so yeah. I remember last year I did real bad. I don't even know how I still ended up being in Beauty and the Beast.
I'm still scared. I get criticized a lot so I would just rather not be in some one's mouth.
Since a couple of kids and I are stuck up in the music hall for another 15 minutes we are always doing something. Today, Ms. D. had left to drop Ms. H off at the airport. I found it funny that Ms. D had left a sign on the table that read "IA- staple papers" Which meant she wanted us to staple music. It was Patapan. The one we did my sophomore year. Yay! The note was just funny though.

Yay, lunch. F it.

Japanese. F it too. Sensei is inundating us with new vocabulary every day. Our quiz, not a test, will be of one hundred new vocabulary. Yeah! We can do Kanji too, but I haven't even been able to review my notes so I don't even know how well I'll do on it.

Then Env. Science. That class is always fun because we talk and do our work at the same time. The conversations are usually always off-the-wall and random. Or about people. Everyone in the class contribute their own opinion and random comments. I know I do.

After school. Yay. I got to hang out with Kaleem, Audrey and Johnny. Kandice was there too but she wasn't very talkative.
I don't know, but I definitely feel like a bitch this year. Especially when I talk about people. I've been called an asshole too, but that was just messing around. Well, mainly because I was gluing together people's Number 6. Angel's. I tried Johnny, but he was too quick.

Band was kind of fun. We set up to 40! Yay. We do need to practice though.
I love how people get creative and when they run out of chips, they find random objects to mark spots. I'm included.
Ehl-oh-ehl at Audrey's cough drop.

I Have a Dream

I have to memorize MLK's speech before Friday! For a grade! I get double points if I do it right the first time, and also, I might get ten dollars from my teachers.
It's not that hard, I already have more than half of it memorized, but it is time-consuming.

I just got done checking Facebook. I read Steven's note. I think he needs a big hug. That's what I'll give him tomorrow morning. Along with a short note. I sympathize with him because this is pretty much how I feel most of the time. I didn't want to put a comment on his note though, because he's already got advice, and it's good advice. I'll just what I'm planning on doing tomorrow. I do hope he understands me. And I hope I don't chicken out either.
I feel bad today, because he went up to me while I was talking to someone else, and I kind of ignored him. And then he left. I should've done something. Hugged him. I don't know. I feel like a bad friend.

On to a more cheery subject, kind of.
Since I'm working on an "Illegal Immigration at Tech" story, I need to research immigration laws, citizenship procedures and stuff like that. It's going to be a big story and it might not be ready for this upcoming issue. So it kind of sucks, I do have a "List of Clubs" that I put together. It might not have my name, but deep down I'll know it was I who made it!
The Cannon might gather on Oct. 7th to celebrate our hard work.
Ms. Jesse used the title "Editor in Chief" for me! That's my new title!
James Vaughn- Feature Editor
Jasmyn Powell- Opinion Editor
Titilayo- Business Manager
Ariel- Layout Editor
Angie Huizer- News Editor

I don't think I got a single hug today from Josh. It's okay though. I don't want him to get sick of me. I did help a lot though, and I was helping in both English and Spanish, so my brain was all "quat?" Think about it.

Music was okay, I used this time to be all up on Joey's neck. It just smelled so good. I just don't think the boyfriend appreciated me being all over her. I might see his reaction tomorrow during Techoir.
Tomorrow! Techoir! Announcing of the musical! Yay!

Japanese-much. Sensei was talking to us about the toilets they use in Japan; you have to squat on the ground to get "stuff" in there. And there is no toilet paper, instead, there's a jet of water going at like 100 mph up your you-know-what. Not really that fast, but you get my drift. The class thought it was funny. The class, of course, consisting of only four people. We're awesome though.

Science, again, working on test questions.

Band was okie-dokie. We worked on charts. I just hope we can work on the drill tomorrow so the color guard can show off!

I love seeing my "mentee" Every time he sees me he has on this radiant smile, and he brings up his right arm to salute me from far away. It's cute. He's cute. He's a sophomore. From El Salvador. Guillermo Garcia. I love his hair. He has a fo-hawk.

Also, today I finally finished Dean Koontz's One Door Away From Heaven. I really enjoyed it!
Now I'm going to read A Lesson Before Dying by Ernest J. Gainese. It's also from Oprah's Book Club.

Message to Steven: I love you.